ob meme || [7/10] scenes
↳ I like your hairs.
What makes this scene especially precious is that we know Helena doesn’t like to be touched, and for good reason. She’s been manhandled and abused by others for most of her life. She’s never really had any contact with anyone who cares about her, with the exceptions of Kira (who hugged her and broke through her defenses the very first time they met) and Sarah.
She’s never had friends that we know of, never lived in any kind of positive or nurturing environment. She didn’t have sleepovers, never went to the mall or the movies with her besties.
She was trained for years to see her sisters as nail clippings to be discarded and yet, because of Sarah, she’s opened up her mind and yes her heart. The girl who was brainwashed to hate now embraces with love. And yes, she’s awkward and obsessive and stilted; but can you or anyone blame her? Not only given her most recent experiences but also with all she’s known and seen and felt her whole life.
And now with this scene, we have the most arguably tactile sister lovingly hold the least tactile. And we see and feel Cosima’s warmth and compassion and Helena’s tragic inability to fully articulate what this means to her because she’s never had anything like this nor any reason to believe she is beautiful or lovable.
Notice Cosima’s expression when Helena doesn’t hug her back. She doesn’t know all we know about her life and yet she understands instinctively that her affection isn’t being rebuffed but that her sister doesn’t know how to respond. I think that makes her sad as she holds onto her just a little bit tighter. Just a little bit longer. Because Cosima just knows how much Helena needs that love and acceptance.
Cosima validates the connection that Sarah and Kira had previously made and it’s so necessary and good and long past due.